Philena At Home

My 9-year-old daughter introduced me to the world of Aesthetic Tik Toks and now.... For those of you who are looking at the screen like I'm speaking gibberish log into your Tik Tok account or your kid's your niece's or nephew's and look it up! If you are anything like me, you won't regret it. An Aesthetic Tik Tok can only be explained by the way it makes you feel while watching.  Words will not suffice. You must see it to understand it.   The first time I watched I was glued to the screen for 45 minutes straight with my lips slightly parted and one eye half closed. I was watching what people do before bed, listening to the sound of dog food being poured into metal bowls, and comparing as different women shared their ideas for getting rid of strawberry legs using beautiful clips of their shower shaving products and processes. The only thing I could say after is, what was that?  These Tik Toks are so satisfying. Before I started writing this today, I watched a woman p

 It's day two of my consistency challenge and I'm already feeling the heat. I got a late start on my day. I usually wake up around 5am and read, I make sure the kids are up and getting ready around 6, We leave at 7:15 and I'm back home cleaning getting ready for my morning workout by 8. By10 I am full of green juice and green water and ready to start work creating word art! Today I woke up at 6:40am the kids were still asleep and didn't want to get up. We didn't leave until 7:45. After I dropped them off, I went to pick up our grocery order and what usually takes me five -ten minutes max took more than thirty minutes because everyone called off today. There was literally one woman bringing out all of the orders and at least ten cars waiting. I was cool, didn't Black Karen out, life is good, I had all the patience for waiting and even more gratitude that I didn't have to go in and do it myself. I took the time to do the reading I didn't do earlier. By the

For the next 31 days I am challenging myself to do what I said I am going to do. To some this may sound like cake work but for me it is not. I am an artist. I have finally become comfortable saying it and standing in all that comes with it. I am occasionally flighty, and more days than not I am inconsistent. I change my mind often and don't show up when I should. I am not always this way and these are not all of the qualities I possess, however I am self aware enough to acknowledge that this is a part of me that needs work, so I have chosen today to put the effort and time into starting the work.  I won't lie, I'm nervous. I feel vulnerable, like I'm taking my socks off in front of people and I don't remember if I lotioned my feet or painted my toes. I'm going for it though!  I have been doing some major self work over the past few years, and I feel like I've grown tremendously. I've faced some major issues like addiction to external validation, and sex.